Anyway, they woke me up at like 5 am, and I couldn't fall back asleep for a good hour or so.
One, because I was counting/timing them (since, for the first time ever, I could actually feel them come and go).
Two, because I totally started freaking out and getting a nervous tummy that if she came already, we wouldn't be able to go away for Labor Day weekend (which - is like NUMBER ONE PRIORITY in my life right now, ha! I have been DREAMING of vacation!).
Three, I started to go over in my head everything that we don't have yet, that we really do need (ideally, before her arrival).
And four, I was imagining us having to suddenly leave to go to the hospital, only to realize that I would be leaving behind a COMPLETELY dumpy and messy apartment! Agh! It was too much for my mind to bare. I wanted to get up immediately to start tidying - but I was too nervous that tidying or cleaning would actually put me into real labor. LOL. Crazy thoughts to have all at once, and totally useless ones, for the most part! :)
After about an hour or so, I was finally able to somewhat relax my mind, and I finally fell back asleep (only to be woken up like 5 minutes later by my REAL wake-up call, that came in the form of my alarm clock, at about 6:15am). It was time to get up and get ready for church. (We have to be at church at 8 am on Sunday mornings for worship practice.)
ANYWAY - so I got up, and instead of jumping straight into the shower like usual, I dashed over to the kitchen, grabbed a note pad and pen, and starting making all sorts of crazy to-do and to-buy lists. I finally stopped quick, to go get ready, and then continued my list-making and brainstorming in the car, on our way there. I made every kind of list I could think of. Things the baby needs IMMEDIATELY. Things that can wait about a week or so, til after she's born. Things we have already. Things I myself will need IMMEDIATELY. Lists of things we need, in their order of importance, ha! Things I want to have done before she's here. Ways I can make sure my house is tidy 24/7 in preparation for a sudden arrival. Etc, etc, etc... And when I was pretty sure that I had thought of everything there is to think of, I re-wrote them all over again. Ridiculous.
So here I am now, two days later, and I have a bunch of lists floating around the house (only making staying tidy, a much harder job!) :)
I feel much more calm now. We're only really lacking a few of the essentials, we're praying daily that her arrival won't be til AFTER our much-needed vacation time, and I realized that leaving a messy house behind to go to the hospital, should be the least of my concerns (although, I won't lie - it would still bother me if that happened!).
Today, I think I will compile all my lists into one or two, less ridiculous ones. Then maybe I can go from there, and feel a little bit better about being prepared and organized; while also not completely making myself out to be some crazy list-lady!
That's all for now... :)
Oh and a little side note: Today is my parents 30th Anniversary! Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad! Love you both dearly!!
2 comments:
HA babes... i love this post! it made me laugh the whole time! i started making some lists too this weekend. mostly things that i need to have at the hospital, just in case i don't have my bag packed and ben or mom has to do it. and keeping the house clean... yikes... i don't even wanna think about it! =) love you babes!
Oh mi querida, querida hermana - how I do love you so! =) I'll be thinking about you and praying for you even more these next few weeks! You're amazing!! =)
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